Thursday, December 2, 2010

A Favorite Poem I wrote

I wrote this poem, it was inspired by a time in my life that I went through some really tough stuff with my mother.

Mommy, Why?

What did I do wrong here? Mommy please tell me why.

I didn't mean to make you angry; did you mean to make me cry?

If dad were not at work now would you still throw me against the wall?

Still yell and call me worthless, but pretend "all's well" when daddy calls?

Mommy, please help me up now, you threw me down the stairs,

but you're supposed to protect me, listen to my thoughts and wants and cares.

Please don't stand above me and look down like I have no worth,

your dark silhouette looms over me, like a demon not of this Earth.

Daddy doesn't see it, he's afraid of you just like me,

my brother stays away now, doesn't want to hear my cries or pleas.

Mommy my friends are worried, they all hate you can't you see?

They all want me to stay with them now, to keep you away from me.

I sit in a stuffy office where my teacher begged me to go,

I confess, and tell and cry but so far there is no crime to show.

Then purple-blue angry bruises appear on my fair skin,

my friends all point and ask while my lies hide your awful sin.

A man comes with a camera, takes shots of my front and side to side,

we sit on the porch as the bloody sun sets and I tell all you've made me hide.

Mommy, I'm sorry that the social worker came,

I don't want to get you in trouble, but you're the one to blame.

I'm scared to be in my own home, make a wrong move or word or sound,

I never know what rolls off your back or what lands me on the ground.

Mommy why is it my fault? I don't slap myself across the face,

you told your therapist a bunch of lies, now social services dropped my case.

A few years pass, fast-forward I'm eighteen now mommy see?

And now I've told you I'll call the cops if you raise a hand to me.

Still the insults continue, each one like a smack or shove,

"pig" ,"fat", "worthless", "stupid", Mommy all I crave is your love.

Now once a week on Wednesdays I sit in a comfy and secure chair,

You now make me go to therapy because I have "too much to bear."

My therapist says inside is a little twelve year old me,

she's still looking for your love and approval, something she'll never see.

Mother I've finally realized, there is nothing I can do,

nothing I can clean or make, not a thing will ever please you.

Mother we've reached a turning point, I've locked the door and lost the key,

one day I'll leave and never look back, Mommy you're dead to me.

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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

A Blurb From My Untitled Archangel Story: Book 2

Okay, so because my brain can't get off my book 2 in my Archangel stories I am going to post my little blurb that won't leave my head right now.


I looked at my best friend who had just walked through the door.


"I think so," she replied. "But who the hell was that?"

I looked back to ask the girl, but she had dove out of the first story window.

"I don't know," I said getting to my feet. "But we are going to find out. Come on."

Lily and I took off at a run, out of the house and in the direction we saw the doppelganger go. As we ran I saw a familiar car driving in the direction of our house..

"Cavan!" I yelled running out in front of his car. "Help us."

My boyfriend stumbled out of the car. "Lena, what's wrong?"

"Get in the car I'll explain on the way."

Caven went to get back in the driver's seat.
"Caven," he looked up at me. "No, no, my love. I will drive."

"Elena, really?"

"What part of mother dated a Nascar driver don't you get Cav? Now give me the keys."

He knew better than to argue and tossed me his keys. I slipped in the driver's side while he got in the front seat and Lily got in back. Right as I was about to take off a silver car cut me off and I slammed on the breaks.

"That girl in the front seat looks just like Lily." Cavan said pointing out of the window.

I watched in shock as a male student went running after the car yelling that she had stolen it.

"Well apparently your doppelganger knows how to hot wire cars Lil."

"Stay on her tail El." Lily said a second before I took off.

We sped off, darting down side streets, and trying to keep the silver car in our sights. When it finally turned down a side street we followed. I was afraid that we would lose the car, they were about to turn out at the other end when a car came out of no where and T-Boned it.

I slammed on the breaks once again to prevent a further accident, and without even having to say anything Lily, and Cavan jumped out of the car and started to pursue her on foot. She had climbed out of the car and was running away from us on foot.

"Lily, go make sure that the passenger in the car is okay, Lena and I will catch her." Cavan yelled, as Lily approached the car.

"Elena we need to split up," he said easily keeping pace with my Archangel speed, which made me wonder, but then I remembered that the adrenaline was probably pumping through his body and making him faster. "You go north, I'm going to go south and cut her off."

"Right," I said running a little faster. "Lily catch up as soon as you can."

I took off down a side alley and stopped. I stood still for a moment or two and just listened, I sent a simultaneous thank you and prayer to my father. I asked him to help me catch her, and thanked him for my Archangel senses. I became silent again, and listened, far off, closer to where Cavan probably was I heard the sound of someone running on pavement. I took off in the direction that they were coming from as fast as I could. Before I had taken ten steps I heard Cavan cry out in pain, my speed increased and out of the corner of my eye I saw Lily running toward me. She must have heard him cry out as well. We reached where I heard my boyfriend writhing in pain to find him sprawled out on the ground blood pouring from a cut in his stomach.

"Oh god," Lily exclaimed, as I dropped my knees beside him. "We have to get him back to J.P. now."

"Hold on Cav, we'll get you back to the car, and be back to our house before you know it." I slung one of his arms around my neck, and Lily slug the other around her neck. Slowly we walked him back to the car, and I got into the car and drove off. We still had no idea who Lily's mysterious doppelganger was, or more importantly, what she wanted.


Next Chapter

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Where To Find Me ~ This is all of my original stuff ~ All of my fanfictions

I Am A Writer

I write

It's what I do

I write fan fiction, my own works, poetry, almost anything that catches my fancy.

Now it will all go here.

Sneak peaks of what I'm working on, links to my full chapter's and things like that.

So follow me if you dare. Maybe you will read something you like.